Last Friday, I had the pleasure of delivering my first survivor speech for LLS. It wasn’t a large crowd. I just gave a quick 3 minute speech about my experience at a private Christian school in Johns Creek called Mount Pisgah. I spoke to their Upper School, which is their high school. They’re beginning a fundraising campaign with an LLS program called Pennies for Patients so they wanted to hear from a survivor.
It was the first time I had talked about my experience. I really thought I was going to cry during the speech, which would have been bad because there’s no coming back once I start crying. But, I made it through pretty smoothly.
It was a casual assembly after lunch, that they call Fam Time, where they just make general announcements. So I was surprised that all of those teenagers were actually listening to me. They even gave me a standing ovation. That’s when I started crying. They close their Fam Time with a prayer and the girl who was doing the prayer dedicated it to me. It was so sweet!
I may be asked to do some more survivor speeches. I hope I can get away with using the same speech! But, it was a great experience. I got to brush off my public speaking skills. Everything I know, I learned from my brilliant high school speech teacher, Mrs. Millet. You would have been proud of me!
Anyway, since I shared my story with all of those teenagers, I thought I’d also share it here. But, you may hear it again if I’m asked to speak somewhere else. Also keep in mind that I was there for LLS, so there are LLS plugs in there.
April 28, 2015. That was the day my life changed forever. I was in my last semester of my Masters program at the University of Georgia. I had already missed a month of classes because of all of my doctor’s appointments, scans, and biopsies. At the same time, I was being kicked off of my parent’s insurance because I had just turned 26. Somehow, I still managed to walk across the stage at graduation two days after have my port placement surgery.
I was overwhelmed with all kinds of emotions. I was angry and resentful. I had been healthy my entire life. I had kale breakfast smoothies, did yoga, and ran a half marathon. While my classmates were getting ready to start new jobs, I was getting ready for chemo. I became extremely depressed. I tried to keep myself from asking why. I didn’t know what was going to happen or what to expect. My friends tried to help, but no one could really relate to what I was going through.
At the same time, I also felt extremely grateful. There was an outpouring of love and generosity from my friends, family, sorority sisters, and even from people I hadn’t talked to in years. I had a whole support team behind me. Although everything seemed like it was falling apart, it was actually coming together.
I once heard a quote. “The day you get a cancer diagnosis is the day you decide whether you will be a victim or a survivor.” Cancer has taught me so much about the resiliency of the human spirit and the human body. It has taught me to enjoy and appreciate every single person and moment in my life. It taught me to be a survivor.
Although my battle with Hodgkin’s Lymphoma is far from over, I continue to have hope. Not only because of the love I have been receiving from my friends, family, and even strangers, but also because of the support from organizations like the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society.
LLS uses the money you fundraise for life-saving research. Without LLS, I would not have such high odds for survival. The money you fundraise also helps LLS continue their other programs that help patients and caregivers cope with a cancer diagnosis. Their First Connection program allowed me to connect with other survivors and ask questions. The co-pay assistance program has also helped alleviate my financial burden.
After two failed chemotherapy regimens, my doctors have recommended a new drug, Brentuximab, a drug that was founded partially because of LLS research funding. So I thank you. The money you raise, no matter how much, will help improve the quality of life for cancer patients like me. I am living proof of that.